Bipolar: one mans decent into hell

No one else fits me, and I dont want anyone else to.

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So my mum just left after being here for an hour and a half or so… she rocked up on my doorstep unannounced demanding I drop everything to accommodate her need to validate herself as a “responsible” parent figure… what a crock of bull…

I spent most of the time sitting listening to one insult after another thinly veiled as concern and worry. saying that I should really be studying to get into a better position like my brother the “big shot lawyer” or that I should be eating better and exercising more to look after myself because I looked like I need it.

First, When you spent 3 years more or less in and out of hospital, I was the one who looked after you, made sure that you were seeing the right doctors, being put on the right treatments, and getting the best help available… my “big shot lawyer brother” was too busy living his life to care. I dropped everything to help you, I gave up the possibility of going to uni to look after you… he didn’t even want to see you. he still doesn’t. I had to talk him into inviting you to his wedding, he didn’t want you there, he’s ashamed of you… but I will never tell you that cause I’ve always protected you… even though you don’t deserve it…

and as for how I’m eating, did you bother to ask me what I’m eating? no. Think to ask what sort of exercise I’ve been doing? no. you didn’t even notice that I’ve lost weight since you last bothered to force yourself into my life. I eat pretty much nothing but lean meats, fruits and veg… and I have been running and/or walking pretty much everyday. not to mention I’m going to start training again soon. if you had bothered to ask you would know these things, other people have noticed I’ve lost weight.

I had such an amazing weekend with my Girlfriend, there were so many magical little moments that made me feel so special and happy.

and now… well now I hate myself for not being good enough, for never being good enough…

I guess at least I know my place…

wonder where I put my razor.

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And my mind is a broken maze with no way out

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• 1: Let’s start with a tricky one; what is the real reason you are confused right now?
• 2: Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
• 3: If your significant other smoked pot, would you care?
• 4: Do you find it easy to trust others?
• 5: What were you doing at 11PM last night?
• 6: You’re drunk and lost walking down the road; who is with you?
• 7: What would you do if you found out you had been cheated on?
• 8: Are you close with your dad?
• 9: I bet you kissed someone last night, right?
• 10: What are you listening to?
• 11: You can only drink ONE liquid for the rest of your life - what is it?
• 12. Do you like hickeys?
• 13: What time do you go to bed?
• 14: Is there someone who continuously lets you down?
• 15: Can you text as quickly with one hand as you do both?
• 16: Do you always answer your texts?
• 17: Do you hate the person you fell the hardest for?
• 18: When was the last time you talked to one of your best friends?
• 19: Is there someone that makes you happy every time you see them?
• 20: What was your last thought before you went to bed last night?
• 21: Is anyone else in the room with you?
• 22: Do you believe what goes around comes around?
• 23: Were you happier four months ago than you are now?
• 24: Is there someone you wish you could fix things with?
• 25: In the past week, have you cried?
• 26: What colour is the shirt you are wearing?
• 27: Do people ever call you by your last name?
• 28: Is anyone ignoring you right now?
• 29: Do you have a best friend?
• 30: Would it be hard seeing someone else kiss the last person you kissed?
• 31: Who was your last call from?
• 32: Are you mad at anyone?
• 33: Have you ever kissed someone older than you?
• 34: How old will the last person you kissed be on his/her next birthday?
• 35: How many more days until your birthday?
• 36: Do you have any summer plans yet?
• 37: Do you have any good friends of the opposite sex?
• 38: Are you keeping anything from your best friend(s) now?
• 39: Do you have a secret that you’ve never told anyone?
• 40: Have you ever regretted kissing someone?
• 41: Do you think age matters in relationships?
• 42: Are you available?
• 43: How many people have you had real, strong feelings for since high school ended?
• 44: If you had to get a piercing (not ears), what would you get?
• 45: Do you believe exes can be friends?
• 46: Do you regret anything?
• 47: Honestly, what’s on your mind right now?
• 48: Did you ever lose a best friend?
• 49: Was your last kiss a mistake?
• 50: Why aren’t you pursuing the person you like?
• 51: Has the last person you kissed ever seen you cry?
• 52: Do you still talk with the person you LAST kissed?
• 53: What was the last thing you ate?
• 54: Did you get any compliments today?
• 55: Where are you going on your next vacation?
• 56: Do you own anything from other countries?
• 57: Are most of your friend guys or girls?
• 58: Where have you lived most of your life?
• 59: When was the last time you took a long drive?
• 60: Have you ever played Spin the Bottle?
• 61: Have you ever TPd someone’s house?
• 62: Who do you text the most?
• 63: What was the last movie you saw?
• 64: What’s preventing your current boyfriend/girlfriend from going back to their ex?
• 65: How many boyfriends/girlfriends did you have in 2010?
• 66: Is the last person you kissed younger than you?
• 67: Do you curse around your parents?
• 68: Are you happy with where you live?
• 69: Do you collect anything?
• 70: What’s your favourite colour?
• 71: Does the last song you listened to remind you of anyone?
• 72: Has anyone ever cheated on you?
• 73: What are your plans for tomorrow?
• 74: Do you have siblings over the age of twenty-one?
• 75: Does your last ex have a job?
• 76: What would you do if you found out your most recent ex was in a relationship?
• 77: Where is your cellphone?
• 78: What colour is your cellphone?
• 79: What did you dream of last night?
• 80: Are you atheist?
• 81: Will you change your name when you get married?
• 82: Are you ready for autumn weather?
• 83: Have you had any big storms recently?
• 84: What kind of bottoms are you wearing?

how I feel about my beautiful girlfriend

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cinnamontenae:

Topless Tuesday with some serious bruising…

I’m completely innocent in this matter… *cough*

I have

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pull-the-triggerr:

psychologicalsock:

kiss-my-sassyness:

HOLY FUCK THE NOTES.

If you’re my follower and you don’t reblog this we have a problem~ 

HOLY SHIT LOOK AT THE NOTES

you better reblog this.

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